I’m sorry. I stopped taking responsibility for my own life and my own actions and I’m done with it.

I could list a ton of different, valid reasons as to why my mindset was derailed, why my faith in humanity was shaken and tested but end of the day I realized life is what you make it, and I decided I want to make my life better. Therefore I am over waiting on the help of others to save my life.

I still have a torn arterial valve, need open heart surgery, and have lupus but I am determined to reverse my symptoms, get the surgery and not only survive but thrive afterwards with the new-found knowledge I learned in this ever-changing phase of my life.

I have been and will continue to devote my life towards positive change and growth in order to survive the intense amount of strain I put on my own heart and mind over the years.

I’ve been partaking in multiple forms of therapy, practicing an Ayurvedic way of life, and eliminating as many harmful toxins and chemicals from my life as possible; including not just shampoos and the food I eat, but the people I surround myself with, and the media I choose to consume on a day to day basis.

I’ve resumed daily meditation and have begun practicing taking breaks in silence.

Above all, I’ve been practicing gratitude over all else. If I’ve learned anything from this experience it’s how much I have going for me and how fortunate I am to have the amazing fans and support system that I do.

I appreciate everyone that stood by my side during this time and apologize to everyone I let down, including myself. I am so thankful for all that I have and everything I’ve built.

I realize I wouldn’t have been able to accomplish almost any of what I have without luck and an immense amount of support in all forms.

I lost track of the vision but I’m back now and I won’t let you down. I’m sorry.